Saturday, June 26, 2010

hope.

"Deep, serious, introspective, and analytical, you accept nothing at face value, and you are always probing into the hidden side or deeper meaning of situations and people. You are fascinated by the mysterious and unknown. You enjoy periods of solitude in peaceful surroundings, and need time to study, reflect, or meditate. You may be given to much daydreaming and flights of the imagination as well. The ocean has a powerful attraction for you. The study of philosophy, psychology, scientific research, metaphysics, or religion appeals to you. You are scientific in your approach to Truth"

"Intimacy might be difficult for you. You can be cynical, selfish, egocentric, withdrawn, aloof, lonely, overly reserved and suspicions.

Maintain your independence, but be careful not to become too inward and isolated."


I think I'm fighting off depression. I don't think I am depressed but I feel it looming over sometimes. I don't have a handle on myself right now and I don't understand the map that life has out for me, I feel like I'm looking at a road and signs everywhere but I have no understanding of anything. I don't know what I want to be in life anymore I don't think that anything is attainable this ballooned ego has been completely deflated and I've gotten rid of all of my ambitions. I don't know if I'm at a desperate time but I'm definitely somewhere close by. I am a really positive person and thats what is keeping me a float but I have to wonder, is this living in la la land?

I need hope

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

diamonds are forever, they wont leave in the night have no fear they would desert me


"now all i need is ya'll to pronounce my name. Life's moving too fast I need it to slow down. The preacher said we need leaders, right then my body stood still like a paraplegic. Take your diamonds and throw 'em up like your bulimic. "


jesus talk to me. I need a prayer to be answered.